Oh My Goff

I figured it's been quite a while since I last posted and it's time for an update. I'm currently a Resident Advisor at Azusa Pacific University and am also taking classes there. Since I last posted, a LOT has happened. My ex-girlfriend and I got back together on August 23nd, 2003, then broke up on the following Halloween. We were both going to APU at this time and neither of us talked to the other for about 5-6 months. We started talking again in April and became friends again.
My first year at APU was pretty bad…my roommate was a weirdo math major who had no handle on reality and never cleaned up after himself. I couldn't get my health together (auto-immune stomach issues) which obviously led to missing class, etc. I managed to get a 3.2 GPA for the year and applied for the RA position and was accepted! Over the summer I went home and worked a 9-5 job at a local computer repair shop making $9/hour. Not bad for a 2 month job. Over the summer it became apparent that we were going to have to put our 18 year old dog, Scruffy, down because his quality of life was no longer at a level that we wanted for him. He had a tumor in his rump, he was 95 percent deaf, he had cataracts, his back legs gave it once in awhile when he would try to run, he couldn't keep from peeing on the floor a lot of times…it was heartbreaking. I haven't cried that hard since I was a little kid. I went to Montana for a week and a half to recoup and get ready for the backpacking trip that all the RA's go on at APU prior to beginning the school year: Walkabout.
Walkabout was GREAT! 10 days of backpacking in Yosemite, with two of those being “solo”, meaning that I was alone for 48 hours, on a fast from food and artificial stimuli. This trip really showed me a lot about God, about where I stood with Him, and where I needed to go.
Upon returning from Walkabout on August 19th, my health immediately took a turn for the worse and I immediately began getting behind in class right off the bat. Very discouraging…I'm prone to anxiety/worry about this kind of stuff, especially since traditionally I'm a major procrastinator. Fast forward to today:
Being an RA is wonderful…I love the opportunities it affords me in regards to the residents I live around. I wish I could spend more time with all of them, though my health has made it very difficult. I'm still trying to find a diet plan that completely eliminates the rheumatoid arthritis symptoms. My ex girlfriend and I have resumed a high level of friendship and have confessed that we still have feelings for each other. However, this time we are attempting to be wise and prudent and are therefore abstaining from a relationship at this point in time. We both need to focus on our own schoolwork, and it is clearly too early to be entertaining ideas of another relationship right now anyway.
Right now I'm on duty in the rec. room, just one of the weekly responsibilities of being an R.A.
I wish I could just BE HEALTHY

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